We abandon hunger At the first sliver of light Baby crescent cobra Hovers over Unburied bones On thawing ground We cannot weight To shove them under Careful consumption Exposed in onion skinned detail The swollen swallow Chokes On a breath of fresh air Replacing the silence of peacekeeping With deafening truth Sing sing sing Goodbye…Read more Burning Moonlight
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Salt
I want to spit the Unforgiving truth across your unsaved face Slap your mouth with my sharpened tongue Fatten and split your lip In front of the empty fridge Where you picked apart my imperfections Just before the exam When I'd barely yet begun to be You hated hated hated me Hungry for the elusive…Read more Salt
Feeling Right
Many of us are asking ourselves if it's ok to feel a sense of vindication, even celebration, that certain people got some bad news this week. As a licensed clinician and survivor of complex trauma, I thought I'd share some insights about what's happening. When someone's behaved in ways that recklessly demolished the hopes, dreams,…Read more Feeling Right
Under Wait
Mass incarcerated index Prestigious, profitable Ignorance Has made prisoners Of us all Ignoring soul hunger Begging at Defeat Stupid Catholics prey On children Bathing birds Birthing hips To wash your sins away An eternity of tears Cannot erase this Invisible, insatiable monster Of compassionless greed Terrified Tories Insist We rise strong That which doesn't kill…Read more Under Wait
Dharma Snacks
My therapist said I looked like Carole King today. (Therapists have therapists.) Now I can’t stop singing, ‘I wanna be home again and feeling right.’ Is enlightenment ‘home’? Are we ‘home’ if we rent? Is home a person, place or thing? Listened to part of a dharma talk this morning on Right Desire...repressed wants and…Read more Dharma Snacks
Mental Health Matters
A few of weeks ago I did an interview with the lovely, Dr. K.E Garland on Escapsim for her new series: Mental Health Matters. If you haven’t checked out her site, I highly recommend you do. Thanks again Kathy. via Mental Health Matters: Escapism with Elizabeth Fitzgerald, LPC https://youtu.be/IwQG_OKV-g8 And here's a link to her…Read more Mental Health Matters
Blue
Anyone else plagued by waves of shame and guilt? Like you did something wrong, you’re in big, big trouble but you don’t know what you did and also, you’re not 5 anymore? Yea, me too. It’s normal. One of the many joys of surviving complex trauma is fearing punishment for crimes we didn’t commit. The…Read more Blue
Be Ok
How are you? I've found it hard to think, read, sleep and even talk sometimes the past few days. For those of us with trauma histories, the current situation is pushing all our buttons. Why? Because trauma once threatened our sense of safety and control in the world, and now, it's happening all over again.…Read more Be Ok
Ziji
Ziji: Buddhist concept of the shining light of divine radiance The building was a layer cake of sheer chaos, divided by shattered windows, narrow stairwells and screaming. You won't find anything sweet like frosting here. She pulled me into the mailroom with desperate urgency which I can't stand first thing in the morning. It was…Read more Ziji
Sweet Nothing
The Gum Wall (do not chew on this) Say a word for Jimmy Brown He ain't got nothing at all -Sweet Nuthin' Velvet Underground We need fantasy to survive because reality's too difficult.- Lady Gaga PTSD turned 40 this year but it's still acting like a teenager; defiant, cliquey, hormonal and a little bit selfish.…Read more Sweet Nothing
Born in Providence 