Say What you will With only means To take A rake to the bottom of the sea's soul Cutting through silt and coral To slit the ocean wide Gently bleeding, gilded girls Whale Stuffing the metal fist with clam shells How we long and weight To breathe Pliant prying Poke and prod I said no…Read more Venus
Anorexia
Hunger hurts but starving works when it costs too much to love.- Fiona Apple
Bluefish
One fish to fish Hook Hooker Bait Line and sink her Red fish Blue fish The bass drowns out The invisible shadow of a shivering minnow Dripping in silence outside the door Paralyzed screams Tapping gently for entrance Crushed between a string of greasy thumb nails Muted pauses Hold your breath over the bridge Till…Read more Bluefish
You Are Enough and Other Lies
If we were enough You would cease in Scraping our faces across The searing sidewalks Of existence Track marks Steamrolling civility of Eloquent boundaries Set alongside cups of tea Steeped in humility Quiet Plainly stated requests would suffice In saying what now requires Scarred and hog tied bodies Screaming pleading bleeding Tears drowned in Gaslight…Read more You Are Enough and Other Lies
BEDLAM: The Hole Truth
"We can't fix something that we can't face."- Dr. Kenneth Rosenberg Bedlam is both a book and full length documentary by psychiatrist turned author and film maker, Dr. Kenneth Rosenberg. The book was released in October of 2019. I found the documentary on YouTube last week. As per usual, Katy Perry's latest music video has…Read more BEDLAM: The Hole Truth
Under Wait
Mass incarcerated index Prestigious, profitable Ignorance Has made prisoners Of us all Ignoring soul hunger Begging at Defeat Stupid Catholics prey On children Bathing birds Birthing hips To wash your sins away An eternity of tears Cannot erase this Invisible, insatiable monster Of compassionless greed Terrified Tories Insist We rise strong That which doesn't kill…Read more Under Wait
Dharma Snacks
My therapist said I looked like Carole King today. (Therapists have therapists.) Now I can’t stop singing, ‘I wanna be home again and feeling right.’ Is enlightenment ‘home’? Are we ‘home’ if we rent? Is home a person, place or thing? Listened to part of a dharma talk this morning on Right Desire...repressed wants and…Read more Dharma Snacks
Mal Nuit
The smell of the sheets gave her away. She's a stripper. (I love my sisters) Why are we in her bed? There's no where else to sleep. It could hardly be called a bed, though this was sadly, infuriatingly familiar. A mattress pad on the floor of some glorified closet. Had I learned nothing? Had…Read more Mal Nuit
Fire Bird
Swallow the son Shine Your sin is not my shade Fly Ignited alive On paper This trauma mastery is a dime bag of bull shake Holy Shit! For Fox sake Your fragile egos Eat sensationalized lies For breakfast, lunch and Donner Inglorious gluttony Insatiable beasts Running at break neck speed A spectrum of death Walking,…Read more Fire Bird
Drop in the Ocean
Hue manatees See cows? Think you can break my art With horror stories Of motel swine exchanges For ass and cash The please we leave behind paintings, Suicide notes Of still lives Harbors Resentment Rent the price we pay For fear of never becoming who we were destined to be I will be the answer…Read more Drop in the Ocean
Blue
Anyone else plagued by waves of shame and guilt? Like you did something wrong, you’re in big, big trouble but you don’t know what you did and also, you’re not 5 anymore? Yea, me too. It’s normal. One of the many joys of surviving complex trauma is fearing punishment for crimes we didn’t commit. The…Read more Blue
