There's a wave in the front of my hair that looks just like his. Countless mornings wasted, drowning the kink in water and alcohol, blasting my scalp with heat, beating my head with a brush, cursing the curves into straight, lifeless submission. Flesh of my flesh, blood, bones Despite defining differences, years were spent attempting…Read more In Sin
childhood sexual abuse
Hollow
"And now here is my secret, it is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."- The Little Prince Hunger isn't just about food and poverty isn't only about money. I used to hide in closets to avoid both. Sitting alone in a small, dark space…Read more Hollow
More or Less
The recipe was complex. It wasn't the product of any single ingredient; chaotic poverty, violent neighborhoods, a biological rejection of breast milk, my father's drinking, a decade of sexual abuse, ballet, track, modeling, cheerleading, gymnastics, being the smart, good, catholic girl who could babysit, clean, cook, say helpful things, the girl who got beat…Read more More or Less
Dirty, Sticky, Mess
You chop, peel, shave, grate, exfoliate...steam, press, juice and preen. Your body is a smooth, scented, waxed surface awaiting to be frosted in fondant like a freshly baked cake, right out of the freezer...do you sincerely mean to please her? Somehow I doubt you, the label on the side of the box...interested only in getting…Read more Dirty, Sticky, Mess
