The first dream Where I saw you approach Love silently smothered In the yellow booster Seated at the wrong side of An unfinished Turn table Leveled by legless arms Hoisting a sword It's over my head If only I were paralyzed Could you see The slicing nightmare Piercing guiltless bread Forever divided Between all your…Read more Divisible
recovery
Burning Moonlight
We abandon hunger At the first sliver of light Baby crescent cobra Hovers over Unburied bones On thawing ground We cannot weight To shove them under Careful consumption Exposed in onion skinned detail The swollen swallow Chokes On a breath of fresh air Replacing the silence of peacekeeping With deafening truth Sing sing sing Goodbye…Read more Burning Moonlight
A is for…
Let's jump right in, shall we? Adverse Childhood Experiences or ACE's is the largest public health study to inextricably link early life traumas to adult health outcomes. It was conducted in the late 90's by two, white, male doctors at Kaiser Permanente; a fancy healthcare corporation, not a german King. It's important to note that…Read more A is for…
Leaving the Palace
When young Buddha snuck out of the palace to see what life was like for us mere mortals, he freaked out. He saw all the awful parts of life he’d been sheltered from his entire, young, privileged life. Kind of like what’s happening now for privileged people who’ve never had limitations forced on them by…Read more Leaving the Palace
Break Her
The Breakers is one among a string of grandiose abodes, against which the restless Atlantic bangs her white capped head. You would too. They're embarrassingly excessive erections; temples of oppression can hardly be considered homes worthy of priceless admission with their velvet ropes and closed off rooms, everything hermetically sealed in prophylactics, much like their…Read more Break Her
e’s
Last year I decided to choose a single word intention instead of a resolution; Elevate. In spite of 2020 being kind of a nightmare, I found ways to raise my previously very low bar, set and achieve realistic goals and take the high road whenever possible. For the most part, it worked! The only minor…Read more e’s
Hunger
How do we gain weight when society demands we stay hungry? As a trained clinical professional, I know the eating disorder I've battled for over thirty years has been both my armor and enemy, the root of which is society's fear-fueled pecking order. I never wanted to stay hungry but was forced to starve myself…Read more Hunger
Tri Harder
Like all nightmares, it began with a broken hearted man and a woman to blame it on. He'd been left to fend for himself by his child's mother. I suppose it's presumable he'd been left to fend for himself long before being abandoned as an adult, saddled with responsibilities no one would be prepared to…Read more Tri Harder
Peace Be with You
In studying the art and lives of artists, I continue to learn about the nature of humanity. We can create the kind of beauty that makes all the cells in our bodies dance with inspired electricity. And sometimes, we can be absolute atrocities, full of rage, hopelessness, righteous indignation, violence, passivity, cruelty. Love is our…Read more Peace Be with You
Nourished
Unplanned adventure. My therapist has been challenging me to expand my definition of what it means to nourish myself at the intersection of ed recovery, pursuing my publishing dreams and living during a pandemic. We aim high. She’s amazing. A huge part of how I got out from where I started was mastering the art…Read more Nourished
