My therapist said I looked like Carole King today. (Therapists have therapists.) Now I can’t stop singing, ‘I wanna be home again and feeling right.’ Is enlightenment ‘home’? Are we ‘home’ if we rent? Is home a person, place or thing? Listened to part of a dharma talk this morning on Right Desire...repressed wants and…Read more Dharma Snacks
CPTSD
Mental Health Matters
A few of weeks ago I did an interview with the lovely, Dr. K.E Garland on Escapsim for her new series: Mental Health Matters. If you haven’t checked out her site, I highly recommend you do. Thanks again Kathy. via Mental Health Matters: Escapism with Elizabeth Fitzgerald, LPC https://youtu.be/IwQG_OKV-g8 And here's a link to her…Read more Mental Health Matters
Blue
Anyone else plagued by waves of shame and guilt? Like you did something wrong, you’re in big, big trouble but you don’t know what you did and also, you’re not 5 anymore? Yea, me too. It’s normal. One of the many joys of surviving complex trauma is fearing punishment for crimes we didn’t commit. The…Read more Blue
Be Ok
How are you? I've found it hard to think, read, sleep and even talk sometimes the past few days. For those of us with trauma histories, the current situation is pushing all our buttons. Why? Because trauma once threatened our sense of safety and control in the world, and now, it's happening all over again.…Read more Be Ok
Ziji
Ziji: Buddhist concept of the shining light of divine radiance The building was a layer cake of sheer chaos, divided by shattered windows, narrow stairwells and screaming. You won't find anything sweet like frosting here. She pulled me into the mailroom with desperate urgency which I can't stand first thing in the morning. It was…Read more Ziji
Sweet Nothing
The Gum Wall (do not chew on this) Say a word for Jimmy Brown He ain't got nothing at all -Sweet Nuthin' Velvet Underground We need fantasy to survive because reality's too difficult.- Lady Gaga PTSD turned 40 this year but it's still acting like a teenager; defiant, cliquey, hormonal and a little bit selfish.…Read more Sweet Nothing
Debated Devotion
God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they receive the crown of life that god had promised to those who love him. -James 1:12 Thanks for sharing these babe. I think James was a sadist and sometimes his book is used as propaganda to fuel Christian codependence, the exploitation of poor and…Read more Debated Devotion
Behind a Glass Wall
Dreams are deferred for all kinds of reasons; historical oppression, systemic greed, lack of resources, confidence, trust, motivation, sleep. At various points in my life I’ve assumed certain comforts and goals were unattainable for people like me; poor and spoiled. Not the ‘silver spoon in mouth’ kind of spoiled, but the rotten egg, inherently worthless,…Read more Behind a Glass Wall
The Good Fight
"Forgive m'lady but you don't get it. You're brought up to think it's all within your grasp. That if you want something enough it will come to you. We're not like that. We don't think our dreams are bound to come true because they almost never do."-Downton Abbey Servant Do not throw in the towel…Read more The Good Fight
Post-Traumatic Propaghandi
No, it's not a song, though, as usual this over chewed thought was inspired by music. In spite of everything, or maybe because of it, I love to sing and dance. (I like their name and some of their lyrics but don't like loud, fast, vegan punk rock, in general.) Quick aside: I'm sorry for…Read more Post-Traumatic Propaghandi
