I overthink, overfunction and generally try too hard which gives way to exhaustion and eventually giving up until something happens and starts the cycle all over again. It's gotten better after twenty years of recovery and healing work; better but not perfect. Perfection is static, life is all about movement which makes it messy. Peak…Read more Good Enough
True Stories
There is no life that does not contribute to history- Dorothy West
Use Your Illusion
Back in the day I was known for my Axl Rose impressions. Girls would stop bullying me for at least a week before their slumber parties so I'd come with my red bandanna and entertain them. Apparently I have or at least had an appetite for self destruction. Thankfully, I'm not ten or codependent anymore.…Read more Use Your Illusion
She Lived
Not since Harry Potter have I devoured a book over 400 pages so quickly and then cried knowing I'd have to wait an untold number of months (years?) to find out what happens next. Throughout this book, however, I found peace in knowing the very real and accomplished author is currently living a colorful, nourished,…Read more She Lived
Flight of Ideas
I’ve always appreciated this image but was recently struck by the number of ‘likeable’ elements; as if any privileged white person might see themselves in the face of the mother or her children and decide it's polite enough, even desirable, to empathize with. This is the image of hard times I can face and maybe…Read more Flight of Ideas
A’wake
The island was up; crowded with familiar strangers preoccupied with tired itineraries. Eat, shop, sleep, repeat. Nothing of substance in their coming or going; autopilots of autonomous kingdoms, oblivious to the winged ship hovering over the harbor like a pilgrim spacecraft. The light in the cove was neither night or day but I registered the…Read more A’wake
Chicken Shit
Chickenshit: i: WWII troop slang for military bureaucratic bullshit. The word implies the regulations in question are so silly and trifling they don't measure up to the level of bullshit. ii: Cowardly, a wimp. -Urban Dictionary Last week U.S immigration officials raided seven chicken processing factories in Mississippi and arrested 680, mostly Latino workers. Families were ripped apart and stuffed…Read more Chicken Shit
Ooh La Lie
Rien ne pèse tant qu'un secret. Nothing weighs more than a secret. - Jean de La Fontaine Listening my way through Tommy Tomlinson’s memoir, The Elephant in the Room; the story of his struggle with food addiction, obesity and a desperate affair with choosing comfort over the effort it takes to live more and exist…Read more Ooh La Lie
New Video, Take Two
Cheese and morphine are second cousins. There's a pain relieving substance found in milk fat called casomorphin. You know that blissful body rush you get after downing a pint of Haagen Daz, half a large cheese pizza or an entire wheel of Brie? It's our getting a little high on opioids and sugar. Of course,…Read more New Video, Take Two
Drift
Some places, the far away and familiar, help us remember who we are, despite the world helping us forget. My eyes, skin, hair and soul have craved home for close to a decade; probably longer if you count the existential pangs of birth. Bloody mess. The desert parched more than paper; bleaching ever exposing bone…Read more Drift
The Resolution Diamond 101
Hey e, why are you making (crappy) YouTube videos? Cause I wanna start the revolution without leaving the house. Also, I plan on getting better at editing, talking and breathing but you gotta start somewhere. https://youtu.be/an62zWp_DBU What would you like to see the Diamond applied to in future videos? Don't wear fear or nobody will…Read more The Resolution Diamond 101
Born in Providence 