Dreams are deferred for all kinds of reasons; historical oppression, systemic greed, lack of resources, confidence, trust, motivation, sleep. At various points in my life I’ve assumed certain comforts and goals were unattainable for people like me; poor and spoiled. Not the ‘silver spoon in mouth’ kind of spoiled, but the rotten egg, inherently worthless,…Read more Behind a Glass Wall
Dreams
Between Three Worlds
The last time I saw him, he wearing an uncharacteristically large overcoat, standing in front of a clothesline, smoking. Nothing like him at all. Adding to that, he was angry and had his back turned towards us. I can't blame him for the anger. We were angry too. And sad. It's still surreal to think…Read more Between Three Worlds
Elevate
Last year's mantra was janky doesn't live here. In the Year of Perfect Vision we rise. We refuse to wear masks and play games. We keep everything we do and say out in the open. We light up the dark with truth. -2 Corinthians 4 xo
Circle of Stones
Anxious thought interrupted my sleep at roughly 4 am. It happens every week for millions of people so I don't worry about it too much. In an attempt to get a little more rest and quiet useless thoughts, I meditated. After descending the twentieth step, I found myself on a rolling hillside facing a circle…Read more Circle of Stones
The Road Home
I was beyond exhausted and couldn't see the way. My brother told me, as the rain slapped our faces, we're almost there. It didn't matter. All I kept thinking was, you could teleport a solution yesterday! Why does it always have to be like this? We were following behind him in the truck; not much…Read more The Road Home
Post-Traumatic Propaghandi
No, it's not a song, though, as usual this over chewed thought was inspired by music. In spite of everything, or maybe because of it, I love to sing and dance. (I like their name and some of their lyrics but don't like loud, fast, vegan punk rock, in general.) Quick aside: I'm sorry for…Read more Post-Traumatic Propaghandi
See
"And I forgot to tell you I love you And the night's too long And cold here without you I grieve in my condition For I cannot find the words to say, "I need you so"-I Love You, Sarah McLachlan Sometimes it feels like I've forgotten to tell you about all the good parts, which…Read more See
Hum
Mute meant obedience All it really meant was cold compliance Dissociation was a welcomed relief where inconvenient rage, terror and consequence should have rightly taken their place Amidst intolerable offense Your lack of accountability is intolerable But what's left To rage against? Hollow egos incapable of bearing the weight of their own shame? Broken brittle…Read more Hum
Notes
Maybe the blizzard and I had something in common and paradox was part of the plan. I hadn’t considered the possibility I was born in divine Providence, as in the tender loving will and care of someone out there who’s planted seeds of free will and vastly infinite possibilities in each of us, until after…Read more Notes
Memento
Calcified carcass Abandoned by the body An amorphous sucker One born Every day Buried under water weight And all she ate When they were still Attached at the hip Descending deeper down By relentless dictation Of her Mother's illusive light She's empty Fractured Concave Hollow An irregular mathematical miracle Who'll collect dust Mute memento Decorating…Read more Memento
Born in Providence 