Stand tall No matter What can stalk or break you Whispers at the window sill Still Your back turned towards the wall All for one and never have I been one for Teeth stuck in the paneled wood Dissociated from time And space between rational Thought you were losing your mind The migraine pain like…Read more Sunflower
Redefining Self-Care
Today I decided to try a little video chat to quickly share some nagging thoughts on the intersection of self-care and healthy reparenting. Western culture has a way of marketing and commodifying our most basic survival skills, leading us to believe we're deficient and therefore in need of a product or service that can clearly…Read more Redefining Self-Care
Homeless
He said stuff like that happens to everybody. Minimization and globalization are survival tactics. You have a fight with a parent. You couch surf. Maybe sleep in your car. I didn't have a license till I was 29. I didn't own a car till I was thirty something. But I did live on an island…Read more Homeless
Parallel Process
You know the part of the story where the main character decides to ride or die? That's the part I wrote about, again, today. We're perpetually faced with decisions in divided roads. My stomach has been unsettled for the past month. Some mix of stress, work, genetics and my foolish, lifelong fork war. The gift…Read more Parallel Process
First Draft
Peace is not the absence of conflict, it is the conscious facing of our brutal reality to actively but safely wrestle with our discomforts as we reconstruct a destination we’ve yet to imagine. xo
The False Impressionist
The ghost carcass Exoskeleton Stamped Naked bones in the wet impostered earth Cheap cement substitutes Trampled tramp Another line, The same ones Over and again You take up all my useless time So I sit Perched above the baby fork A fish out of water Poking overcooked yoke Wondering if you ever gave a shit…Read more The False Impressionist
The Trip of a Lifetime
I hate flying, all that turbulence and being strapped into a ride or die situation with no control over anything. Despite the screaming, shaking, seat kicking, neck spasming, ultimate discomfort of hurtling through space with nothing but jet fuel and some underpaid pilot attempting to defy the laws of gravity; I have this innate yearning…Read more The Trip of a Lifetime
Good Enough
I overthink, overfunction and generally try too hard which gives way to exhaustion and eventually giving up until something happens and starts the cycle all over again. It's gotten better after twenty years of recovery and healing work; better but not perfect. Perfection is static, life is all about movement which makes it messy. Peak…Read more Good Enough
Sweater Weather
This morning he tells me sons and daughters will prophecy, dream dreams, see visions and nothing happens without action. As for the steps and which direction to take, apparently we're to wait for signs and wonders, act on our free will, screw up, beg for mercy, humbly accept, put on a bunch of armor, do…Read more Sweater Weather
Use Your Illusion
Back in the day I was known for my Axl Rose impressions. Girls would stop bullying me for at least a week before their slumber parties so I'd come with my red bandanna and entertain them. Apparently I have or at least had an appetite for self destruction. Thankfully, I'm not ten or codependent anymore.…Read more Use Your Illusion
Born in Providence 