photo credit: Nathan Vines Somewhere between the second star to the right and straight on till mourning, I left Bend and landed here. Parts of myself remain in transit only to return when I sleep hard enough to pull the island across the country till the shores of South Beach kiss the sidewalks of Wall…Read more Alightment
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“he never says anything off the top of his head”
― Alice Walker, The Color Purple
People, Please
The roots of my people-pleasing began in the lap of a pedophile not soon after an otherwise healthy child would be uttering the word no. For roughly a decade I complied with his advances because I’d seen what happened to the people around him, grown adults in much bigger bodies than my own at the…Read more People, Please
Bon Appetite
Digornio frozen pizza saved my life. The first ingredient is probably something we can’t pronounce but for me, it was an affordable, delicious way to re-gain the weight that magically disappeared when the world shut down. In 2020, I was in three dangerous relationships. Digornio gave me the strength to leave all of them; my…Read more Bon Appetite
Voyant
I looked for you everywhere Fear closed my eyes to the light So we tripped Over shadows Ripping out souls Rig her, anchor and spite Cast her out Across from all the places we know Nothing compares to those horizon lines The familiar gaze Of distant planets Jagged peaks And wet trails Don’t make wishes…Read more Voyant
Child’s Pose
Eventually, carrying around the weight of the world took its toll on my back. Apparently it has something to do with parentification, years of public service, a pandemic and perimenopause. I don’t actually care what caused the pain. At this point, I just want it to stop, for all of us. You’re hurting. I hear…Read more Child’s Pose
Ride On
After my first divorce I got hit with a bout of full blown clinical depression. It felt like I swallowed a half ton magnet that was either trying to pull me into the center of an eternal void or electrocute me. So, not the funnest time. Because I’m a therapist, I knew I needed to…Read more Ride On
Wild
Roughly twenty years ago I tripped over this book on the floor of Bunch of Grapes; a shop on the vineyard. Later that night I succumbed to the most nurturing, nourishingly magical idea of moving to the farthest corner of the country, getting lost in a forest dripping with moss and being adopted by the…Read more Wild
Midbar
Most of it was brutal But beautiful You never once said it would be easy Promised Till death do us IN There’s a fine line of intention between God and Pan I’ll simultaneously trust and grip the wheel for steer life Dear lives Go easier Gently pressing petals Between pampered feet and parchment Oil changes…Read more Midbar
Mixed Signals
Don’t settle. Beggars can’t be choosers. Ignoring your needs is self-abandonment. You are worthy. You are enough. 10000 Ways to Improve Yourself Be grateful for what you have. Don’t let complacency steal your dreams. Or, my current personal favorite: His name is Perrier 👍🏼 How are we supposed to recognize that a mattress on the…Read more Mixed Signals
Surrender
Surrender, surrender, but don’t give yourself away- Cheap Trick I surrender all to you-Hymn Be transformed by the renewal-Romans 12 Give me your heart-Proverbs 23 For the past five years I’ve traded in resolutions for intentions. Resolutions always seem to fizzle out shortly after the epiphany, or the realization that we’ve set a goal for…Read more Surrender
Born in Providence 