I hate flying, all that turbulence and being strapped into a ride or die situation with no control over anything. Despite the screaming, shaking, seat kicking, neck spasming, ultimate discomfort of hurtling through space with nothing but jet fuel and some underpaid pilot attempting to defy the laws of gravity; I have this innate yearning…Read more The Trip of a Lifetime
Good Enough
I overthink, overfunction and generally try too hard which gives way to exhaustion and eventually giving up until something happens and starts the cycle all over again. It's gotten better after twenty years of recovery and healing work; better but not perfect. Perfection is static, life is all about movement which makes it messy. Peak…Read more Good Enough
Sweater Weather
This morning he tells me sons and daughters will prophecy, dream dreams, see visions and nothing happens without action. As for the steps and which direction to take, apparently we're to wait for signs and wonders, act on our free will, screw up, beg for mercy, humbly accept, put on a bunch of armor, do…Read more Sweater Weather
Use Your Illusion
Back in the day I was known for my Axl Rose impressions. Girls would stop bullying me for at least a week before their slumber parties so I'd come with my red bandanna and entertain them. Apparently I have or at least had an appetite for self destruction. Thankfully, I'm not ten or codependent anymore.…Read more Use Your Illusion
She Lived
Not since Harry Potter have I devoured a book over 400 pages so quickly and then cried knowing I'd have to wait an untold number of months (years?) to find out what happens next. Throughout this book, however, I found peace in knowing the very real and accomplished author is currently living a colorful, nourished,…Read more She Lived
Flight of Ideas
I’ve always appreciated this image but was recently struck by the number of ‘likeable’ elements; as if any privileged white person might see themselves in the face of the mother or her children and decide it's polite enough, even desirable, to empathize with. This is the image of hard times I can face and maybe…Read more Flight of Ideas
A’wake
The island was up; crowded with familiar strangers preoccupied with tired itineraries. Eat, shop, sleep, repeat. Nothing of substance in their coming or going; autopilots of autonomous kingdoms, oblivious to the winged ship hovering over the harbor like a pilgrim spacecraft. The light in the cove was neither night or day but I registered the…Read more A’wake
Chicken Shit
Chickenshit: i: WWII troop slang for military bureaucratic bullshit. The word implies the regulations in question are so silly and trifling they don't measure up to the level of bullshit. ii: Cowardly, a wimp. -Urban Dictionary Last week U.S immigration officials raided seven chicken processing factories in Mississippi and arrested 680, mostly Latino workers. Families were ripped apart and stuffed…Read more Chicken Shit
The Hanged Man
Sociopaths and narcissists justify their offenses against other living beings through objectification and a deeply seeded sense of entitlement rooted in unresolved trauma. For instance, Jeffrey Epstein compared the girls he abused to bagels, leading me to wonder: What happened to Jeffery and all his bagel molesting friends? It’s worth reading this Atlantic article as…Read more The Hanged Man
Shoes
A lifetime ago I took my grandparents to a museum at Harvard. After spending hours touring galleries, I asked my Papa, a steady man of few words, which painting was his favorite. With no further prompting he quickly said, “the shoes...there they were, just three pair of shoes...” and his eyes filled with tears. The…Read more Shoes
