"There's a little black spot on the sun today, It's the same old thing as yesterday." -Sting My father self-admits to abandoning the 12 steps during his recovery because there were certain events from his past he preferred to ignore. "I didn't want to apologize for things I don't want to remember...there was nothing I could…Read more King of Pain
We broke into pieces slowly, like an uncovered cake drying out for weeks on a counter. I'd say the crumbling began after he'd admitted to starting the fire in our apartment. It took a while to accept it as truth given the erosion of safety I'd been avoiding most of my adult life. I'd been brave enough to examine…Read more Shutter
Yesterday I bumped into some old writing; several thousand words chronicling the death of a decade which now looks like a worn out towel in my memory. It made me question love; why we need it, how to go about it, what it's for, why bother the risks. Last night I dreamt about an…Read more Love is.
Florida (New Years 2014) Coming to the end of this year has instead brought me to the beginning, where everything had to start over from nothing. Life is beautifully cyclical this way as I would learn a few short weeks ago parked at a stop light in a snow storm, when a strangers car…Read more Full
My mother would be the first to point out that you could eat off my floors. But the way she would tell you was as if to mock me, as if to let you know of the drastic and rigid handicap I'm cursed with; some death-grip, psycho inability to let go. She'd monitor me at…Read more Chaos and Control
A decade or so ago he left a candle burning in our home office which caught fire and nearly burned down our apartment. This was unlike him. It had to be gutted, re-carpeted and repainted; the fire was so hot it melted our computer and created a secondary electrical fire that shut down the phone lines.…Read more The 5th Element