Mute meant obedience
All it really meant was cold compliance
Dissociation was a welcomed relief where inconvenient rage, terror and consequence should have rightly taken their place
Amidst
intolerable offense
Your lack of accountability is intolerable
But what’s left
To rage against?
Hollow egos incapable of bearing the weight of their own shame?
Broken brittle
Nuts
You revolt and exhaust me.
How much more of this?
That sacrificial lamb was slaughtered after a merciful thirty
Some odd years
This cow is past her prime.
Hey Minister, arrest me!
Can’t ya make it all stop?
My heart
Don’t ya have all the power?
My heart
Hold all the cards you brutal brute
Stops
By the blunt words cast
From your heartless tongue
Et tu Brutè?
Throwing ACE’s in our faces but no one’s listening to mute birds perched on Targeted stakes to prevent all the shit from soiling privileged windshields
Some days you’re the statue, you say?
What more than pretty stone creatures
Have we ever been?
Stare, admire, toss a copper and walk away.
Easy for you to play
I just wanna take the money I make
And I wanna go away
Stand here and endure this
Post traumatic Propagandhi
Selling your hanged nails
For the inheritance of a Lifetime
Dripping with whoredom
At the Met Pet Gallery
Of slut babies, low income and
Swarovski Crystal Meth
I refuse to protect you from this
Mirror Mirror on the wall
You’re the greatest failure
Of us all
But couture hides
A laundry list of sins
Now who’s the merciless one?
Cortisol elevator
Up and down and down and up
Pent Up House!
There are no solid landings for winged things flying at heartbreak speed
For a lick of sweetness
Imperceptible madness
I’d rather wither away than waste any more time convincing your faulty amygdala is worth my compassion
Or
Grace?
Where is she when you need her?
You don’t seem to listen when I tell you
I can’t take much more of this
What is freedom here!?
In debt up to our skyballs
Beyond the consolation prize of restitution
The twelve stars of Revelations
Who’re those chosen ones?
1,2,3
Not us!
A thousand mercies
We beg
For relief that never truly comes
Tonight I will not lie
To myself
In codependent fantasies
that one day this’ll all be worth it
Sick to death of
Waking from one nightmare to the next
Suck, suck, suck
With pleading words
When all I really wanted to say
Was FUCT, FUCT, FUCT
Dead since the day we were born
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So anyway. Amen.
The art is Pigeon King from a sketchbook I’m making for The Brooklyn Art Library. Today was beyond singular words like ‘hard’ or ‘bummer’ which is why I learned the second language of poetry. At least my soul can scream.
I’m exhausted from the endless amount of greed and corruption and would gladly turn my back. But I have grandchildren who deserve better. I have to be vigilant. I have to keep trying. But your poem made me weep for all that I recognize.
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And, I love the art.
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Hope the poem accompanies the artwork (in the sketchbook) to the Brooklyn Art Library.
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I suppose now it must.
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Especially it going to an art library! Be well.
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❤️
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Are we going to get to see the rest of the artworks in the sketchbook? With or without poetry.
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Yes 😁 I’ll either do a post of photos with captions and/or a video read through as the sketchbook is inspired by a story I wrote a while back; The Book of Love. So far it’s been a fun process!
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Looking forward!! 🙂
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Thanks Petru 😁
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“dead, since the day we were born” Yes. And yes.
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I promise I’m an optimistic ray of sunshine but sometimes I just need to be real.
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Real is fine by me 😉
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😁
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